DAY OF RECKONING

Let’s make a deal
Starved to imagine an image
I can’t feel
Would you tell me what is real?
A picture, a face
Lacking the bass to base my case
Is this something I should conceal?
Well the grass is always greener
Where the fence is not
Anticipation outweighs the deed
Sometimes that’s all you’ve got
Maybe there’s a day of reckoning
For the corners you have cut
Waking up and finding out
Your eyes are still shut
You said "Jesus is the answer"
But I can’t recall
Asking a question at all
"Open your eyes", you said
"It’s a question of faith"
Well, I’m sorry if I blink
When things get pushed in my face
Fantasy in your reality
Is the path that you chose
Whether you’re wrong or right
I guess God only knows
Maybe there’s a day of reckoning
For the corners you have cut
Waking up and finding out
Your eyes are still shut
So, I’m left holding the bag
But it should come with no surprise
When you step on your own feet
You’ve got to deal with your demise
Sometimes it’s no fun
Having to stick to your guns
Waiting until your day of reckoning comes

IF

If I could say the words
That you want to hear
To calm all your nerves
And quite all your fears
But if’s a pretty big word
If I could have a plan
Everything would seem so clear
All of the things that torture us
Are the ones that draw us near
Why don’t you hold me near?

TRIED

Another day I pissed away
I didn’t do anything at all
Me and Patsy Cline pass away the time
She comforts when I’m crying at the wall
A question of pride, now the aching inside
Dumb tears on my sleave
We crawl back for the bits, too shamed to admit
That we’re to dumb to quit, please leave
We’d sleep back to back and the inches seemed like miles
You ignored me all the while
And if I’d state my case, you’d just laugh in my face
And if I cried you’d smile
If you ever miss my touch, realize love wasn’t enough
And you want with all your might
If you ever miss my kiss, just please remember this
I was the one who tried

WALKING BACKWARDS

Jenny said, when I was young and dumb
I got kicked in the head
Thought I was getting love by and by
Instead, I got another skeleton
Shoved under the bed
When I see his face I cry
You take it day by day and night by night
When you’re walking backwards through life
Richard hides out in his room all day
At night he goes to clubs
To find cheap women he can lay
He says, I’d like something permanent
But it just never seems to stay
He don’t open up and he don’t cry
‘Cos he’s walking backwards through life
Maria looks out of her window, sits down to think
Someday I’ll find me a man and
He’ll pull me away from the brink
She says, I’ll get my life worked out
Once I get out all the kinks
She don’t open up or get up or even try
She’s walking backwards through life

ANOTHER LONELY DAY

Woke up this morning
Wanting a drink
Starting off on the wrong foot
Had my head in the sink
Now it’s 3 a.m., I’m alone again
I’ve been sitting here
Since I don’t know when
All I know is that
It’ll happen again
I wait by the phone to see
If you’re alone like me
‘Cos a change of heart or a
Change of mind and we’ll
Leave this stupid shit behind
All I know is that I’m so lonely
I need you, and you’re not there
Now it’s 5 a.m., guess I’ll go to bed
Guess I’ll call it
Just another lonely day

CHEEP BEER

I woke up this morning
Tasting the floor
I counted all my injuries
I’d received the night before
Saw an open beer upright
Next to the door
Drank it with my buddy John
And we set out to get more
Well, it gives you gas, and it’s got no class
But we love it, it’s cheep beer
Sun beat down on us
As we staggered through the streets
Passed out in someone’s yard
When we stopped to rest our feet
It had gotten late and it was almost dark
John said lets get some beer and
Go pass out in the park
Well, it gives you gas, and it’s got no class
But we love it, it’s cheep beer
So give us more and we’re out the door
We love it, ‘cos it’s Cheep Beer

BOTTOM LINE

When I was a young boy
I had my share of dreams
A head full of crazy ideas and wild fantasies
And all the stories I was told, none of them were true
But I believed them anyway and I’m paying for it still today
I’m another year older, another year colder
A little less bolder, with every cold shoulder
A war torn soldier, the fire still smolders in me
I went for a walk today to see what I could find
Maybe some freedom or leave it all behind
It really doesn’t matter I was out killing time
You only go so low then you hit the bottom line

WRECKAGE

Cold winter mornings are so hard alone
The echo of the creaking floor through this house
That’s what I call it ‘cos I’ve never known a home
Clouded thinking in my crowded mind
So much for my creative outlet and my witty tongue
They can’t get this shit out of my heart
I’m suffering from
Don’t be so easily fooled I’m a candy faced clown
I’m so sorry, I never meant to bring you or anybody down
With all the wreckage of my life
Juggling wreckage of my life
Everything that’s all gone wrong
Everything that’s in this song
Take it all I leave you my wreckage

RUNNING

Underneath my feigned expession
And my drunken chuckle
I’ve got a nervous disposition
Legs about to buckle
I’m living out a lie
Or I’m stealing from an idol
I’m drinking all I can
While I’m quoting from the bible
‘Cos I’m runnig scared
Look now at my face
You’ll see that there are two
One that I’m keeping to myself
The other I show to you
So pour me another drink
And I’ll fill you full of shit
Dig myself a trench of lies
And wallow around in it

PAIN

Wrapping up the millions
As fast as I can
I don’t know where I’m going to
And I don’t know how to get there
And I don’t even have a plan
Can you help me with these problems
I’m going through
Hypocrisy is in my veins
I don’t know why
So I made a cut to bleed it clean
And I bled black blood on my T.V. screen
And all it did was leave me dry
Can you help me with these problems
I’m going through
Can you do something to help ease my pain
Apathy is my best friend
It keeps me from doing work
And I don’t extend myself to far
I don’t open up to anyone
I don’t fall in love and I don’t get hurt
Can you help me with these problems
I’m going through
Can you do something to help ease my pain

QUIT

One score and nothing to show
Planted seeds and yet no seeds will grow
I’m rammin’ my head into a wall
Those stumblin’ blocks always make me fall
What is wrong with this picture, what is wrong
You can lead a horse to water
You can open up the door
If you ain’t got the keys and he ain’t thirsty
What the hell are you doing it for
What is wrong with this picture, what is wrong
Maybe fate has somthing to do with it
Maybe I should quit

DINER SONG

The drunk man stumbles in
After the bars have closed
The waitress sets down a cup
And turns up her nose
There’s two old woman sitting
Staring out the window
The food ain’t that great here,
But that’s just how it goes
Down at the diner
Spots on the china
Ashes in my cup
The cook leans out and yells
There’s another order up
I feel like a fixture here,
But it ain’t a crime
I rearrage the sugars
Read the menu eight times
At the diner
They must be
Just like me
We’re a sight to see
With nowhere to be
I guess I’ll leave
Eventually

ELEDRA

I know, I don’t know Eledra
Is she in the club? She give you a hug?
I say "Hi", if you see her
I’m to tongue-tied to betray what I think
Much easier running to the bar to get another drink
I’m usually not this useless, but maybe I am
But the look in her eyes
Says she understands
We’re so polite you’d think we’d met before
To say we’re two ships passing isn’t more than metaphor
Try to know, that I’m low
Boost my ego with a smile and maybe I’ll fool myself
That she’d rather talk to me
Than be somewhere else
Witty conversation that goes nowhere
I know it means nothing, so why should I care

CUT

Feeling down and feeling tired
Another day so uninspired
Lost control once again
Can’t help hurting now and then
Sometimes it cuts
Do you remember when it began
This mood swing gone out of hand
Digging hands can’t feel to grip
Watch as everything you wanted slips away